It's been a very full week. I'm beat. Tomorrow's another day, so it's a work day.

I got my truck back. They tried, and fixed a couple of things. But the brakes still suck. And it still has killer airbags. New Master Cyclinder and new Power Booster (the 8th one), new calipers, new brake lines. Still feels like worn out brakes. I'll eventually go farther. They also suggested they suspect a front wheel bearing. Saw a nice model T pickup I have my eye on.

I've worked on gun parts a couple of days. Mainly Robert Gillstrom's Hawk.

It's been a terribly painful week. My neck is just killing me. It stays swollen and painful to the touch. It cracks and clicks and snaps, and since I do most work looking down - the muscles don't want to lift my head to look up. The pain causes migraines. Other then that, it's fine.

I went to an eye Specialist. I'm using a medicated anti-inflammatory drug drops. At least it's not a detached retina. Not glaucoma.

I dealt with the lightening strike that took out our net from the house, studio, grounds. That was an odd isolation to a section of cable. We didn't seem to have any direct strike. I mean I never found anything fried, so what ruins 24 ga. Solid wire

I continued work on knives.

I dealt with equipment that needed service and adjusting. I set up a bit more to have the shop more effecient. I cleaned up shop drawings I depend upon regarding gun parts. I made some patterns that always increase efficiency. I just can't show you the drawings, or the parts. We've been through all that.

Every day there has been dead spots where I just hit a wall with pain. I just have to get beyond it. That's part of the thing I simply cannot explain to people who don't want to hear logic. I have no idea what degree of pain I'll face each day, or what I can work through. I've started getting up earlier, and still going to bed about the same. Some simply will not believe that I can't project involved schedules, involving complex builds, with the crazy variables of health and luck. And, I keep trying to make clear ... I was not in my current state of health when I accepted the bulk of my ledger. I didn't suffer from Chronic Migraines and think ... you know .... I think I'll promise a bunch or really intricate work and project delivery dates years in advance so that people can spread out their payments with no interest loans. No - this happened to me. Just as an accident or a medical event "happens to" others. Difference is - to some - mine doesn't count. If I can produce any of the work shown here, then I can ramp it up into hyperdrive. Nevermind - I'm just making "excuses". Guy told me today "The deal was that if I "died", you didn't get your gun." Of course, nobody's been cut out. It's only the unknown number of "hours when I'm capable of doing "Barnes quality work" that is the unknown variable. So; it becomes difficult to isolate exactly which part displeases him. It "could" be heard that if the product isn't ready, then I better be dead. And the "total elapsed time" always gets thrown in my face like the tread coming off an 18 wheeler's tire. Follow that logic to the absurd to make the point, and ... "Hey! You were in a wheelchair TEN years ago!!! I thought you'd be all BETTER BY NOW!" It doesn't work that way guy. I chronicle everything I do. Also all I try to do. But - reading along is so time consuming. Better just call to nag him in a phone call and make him justify being slower now.

I'm sorry, man, nights like this - I'm beat. I never even had a cup of coffee after work. I turned in way early. And here I am, still. Work/bed. Work/bed. Work/bed. What year is this? The work looks right, when it's finished. That's why people assume it must just be simple for me. ............. It's not.

Ok. Neck is killing me. My bad for making an update, but this is for readers, and those waiting. For 99% of you, I do this to keep up - to provide you information. Hopefully in an entertaining manner. Hopefully sharing with a friend, as a friend.



Gary



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I guess some days you just have to count your blessings, since the alternative is...unpleasant to contemplate.

Every day above ground is a good day, right?

Gary
I hear you loud and clear . Like Sean said all days are good IF your above ground . It's hard to know what the future has for any of us and NOBODY understands chronic pain unless you have it . And I don't mean " oh my back hurts " or gee I got a head ache ! It's the every waking moment knowing and being aware of the maybe it's an ok day or maybe I should call in to work or I'll just try to walk it off . " it's a long ways from the heart" ! Chronic pain is like Chinese water torture . It just NEVER stops .


The difference between you and others is you tell your life here . I know you are as ticked off as those have ordered from you and not recieved their purchase . I would be screaming mad had I ordered a gun and NOT recieved it OR heard from you but your right here . You are trying to explain what's up the best you can . I'll bet it would be better to just disappear to never be heard from again . Oh Gary Barnes.....?????? I heard he retired to Fla . What that he filed for bankruptcy you say ? The end ! Closure & done

But wait you hear a rumor that the old air gun guy , what was his name ... Barnes ? He's making air guns again ? How can I get one made . Maybe he'll just sell me what he made for his own enjoyment . Either way there's still a chance .

It's kinda like have a doctor appt and the girl at the desk calls and cancels to reschedule.
Reasons :
1. Doctor has a golf outing
2. Doc was in a terrible accident
3. Just called in sick . (something bout a pain in his neck )
4. Gone fishing ( sign on door ) no call
None of the above are acceptable in your mind but your still mad
So in comes social media and you read on docs face book page he's in the Bahamas and talking about his fun vacation . Your even more upset until you read that's where he was in the accident at.
Now what do you do ??
Find a new doctor , or reschedule ?

Anyways I'm sorry to hear about the the old truck . It would always make a good target to shoot at ! Ha I hear SHOOTIN is a great stress reliever too !
Well I just got done working a couple of marathon days at work and my feet are killing me . I'm hoping for a good relaxing weekend with NO work involved . You should do the same . I really mean that too . Your starting to get a little dull ! WORK

Thanks
Kurt

Thanks Kurt,

Sorry to bleed on ya.

You know, I think the cruel thing is the stuff people use to ease into jabbing you with a taser at the end. "We're standing here with Gary Barnes, who is gasping for breath after just saving a bus load of children from going over this cliff. Mr, Barnes, while we have you here, when do you think you'll deliver the next six ledger items?

Or, the big one I hear that just stands in my oxygen hose ..... Customer tells me that HE has been having some medical issues, and he wants to get his order to get that off his mind. And, I tell them that I will pray for their relief from pain, and I'll do my best for them. And they respond .... "I just really need to get this off my mind."

Kurt, you are exactly right. I just keep thinking I'll be able to explain better. Thing is, I already have bits just not what they want to hear. I just wish they could see my heart. I would no more "cheat" anyone, then I'd pull the wings off a fly. People have trusted me and I am doing my best. At the entire swirling galaxy of issues that make up each month. The only thing people can do is to slow that process by nagging and heaping guilt.

I know that sometimes, I'll seem "less fun" then at others. Another Catch 22. When I'm being entertaining, it annoys the people that want to see me absolutely miserable until I've satisfied them. When I share serious stuff, like this; it's a drag to professionals who only want entertainment. Nobody can make 10,000 posts and not show people who they really are. I'd be much happier without the pain and rotten luck. But I will try to meet my obligations.

Thanks Kurt,
Hope you have a great relaxing weekend. Have a extra dish of your favorite, for me!
Gary

Hey Gary,
Splaining is over rated - HA!
Hang in there,
Jeff

Gary,

I can feel your frustration. The medical conditions you are currently facing. The severe pain and trying to fulfill the ledger obligations; it is large load for you to be carrying. No amount of words from us will help you deal with the issues at hand. Least you know we are thinking of you and your present circumstances.

Our current society needs to be entertained. They see all these stupid tv shows that glorify what people should have, gadgets, homes, luxuries and everything else under the sun... and they want it, want it now! Not saving for it, just go out and get it on credit. Takes a long time to get out of that mind set. When i grew up I had to save for things, now just go dump it on a credit card and worry about the end of the month (which I haven't done for a long time).

I for one really hope things turn around for you! I am sure other regular posters feel the same way.

Blessings,

Pedro